Another day in bed

I am apparently still a bit of a mess. I got super dizzy in the shower again. I have zero appetite and also haven't managed to buy groceries so don't have anything that would be appetizing.

I was supposed to have that php assessment today and didn't go. I did schedule an assessment for a different program that is closer and better hours. So I do that Thursday. I just couldn't imagine going 9-3 everyday and then straight to work from 3:30-12. Only thing making me nervous is this one does a weekly family group. But I have known people that went to this place (though I don't know if they just did inpatient or did the outpatient) and recommended it.

I went to work and was promptly sent home. I was there about ten minutes before the manager pulled me aside to ask how I was feeling. I was honest because I really felt terrible. She told me it was fine if I wanted to go home. She asked about the assessment and I told her about choosing a different program. She asked if I was going to do inpatient and I explained that I wanted to try this. I briefly explained the er visit and how I think I am still dehydrated but that they gave me potassium. I gladly accepted the offer to go home and try again tomorrow.

I had to go by the pharmacy to pick up even more meds because I gave in yesterday and went to the doctor about the rash now covering most of my body. Still no explanation for it, but I was prescribed steroids because calamine lotion wasn't really helping. It was a bit pathetic because I was waiting in line at the pharmacy with a basket containing pedialyte pops, a protein drink, and crackers and had to carry it with both hands because it seemed so heavy. Now I'm in bed. I managed half the protein shake but still haven't eaten solid food. I need to check if the pedialyte pops are frozen yet because honestly that's the only thing that sounds appealing. I took my levothyroxine, the Librium, potassium, zofran, and the steroids so far today.. so I am basically just full of pills and Muscle Milk (which apparently has 22% of the recommended daily amount of potassium? Good to know). I am kinda considering ordering pizza just because I don't have the energy to leave the apartment. Or I can search my kitchen to see if I have anything not expired. I do have applesauce because I specifically went to Sam's club last week because you can buy a 20 pack there rather than the stupid boxes of 4. I hope this fatigue is temporary. I am curious how low my sodium and potassium were but I need to look at the paperwork. If this keeps up for a few more days I might go back. Part of it is that I slept really poorly because the rash itches so so much. Really hope the steroids work. I'm going to take benadryl and check on my popsicles now. I was happy the person at the pharmacy didn't seem judgmental about my purchase. That combination of items kinda screams nausea. Though when I was a cashier I can only think of two customers I wondered about. One was a woman buying cheesecake and laxatives that reminded me of me. The other was an old man buying only prune baby food and air fresheners.. because umm that just creates a disturbing mental image. Obviously did NOT ask about it. Sorry if you didn't want to hear that but I still think it's funny because I am a little immature